I am a child of both parents that have committed infidelity. I need advice on how to cope because I am slowly feeling as if I have lost the desire for intimacy in my relationships or do not imagine myself in one at all.
I, 17F, have parents who both cheated on each other. One before, while I was a child (16/17 years ago), and one now—currently. And I saw it with my own eyes. I've always thought that intimacy was normal. I do get icky on kissing scenes or even s*x scenes in movies. Masturbation is quite normal, and I do not shame myself for doing so, but now that I've caught my parent (one) having an intimate relationship with someone they know online, I feel disgusted. DDay was about a few days ago, and I'm definitely feeling quite empty and questioning reality lol. I've lost my craving for intimacy, and even thinking of having one makes my stomach churn as a result of that traumatic encounter.
I need to find similar people who've been in a similar situation that can tell me how to cope, how to live without a craving for romance or even intimacy—and rekindle my relationship with my currently cheating parent. I really need support, and it would mean a lot if mods wouldn't take down this post. 😄