At first these feelings came with excitement. I just had a big heartbreak and thought I’d never love again. I’ve never had a crush on someone before, not like this. From the moment I saw him I was instantly infatuated.
He’s perfect for me, he’s my exact type like he came right out of my dreams. But of course, reality is not fantasy, so there are a few major roadblocks standing in the way. He’s a lot younger than me, and I usually don’t do age gaps. He’s my coworker, and he’s in a committed relationship with another trans person.
At the end of the day, I just want and need all trans people to be happy. So I’m not wishing for the end of their relationship or anything. I’m in my 30s and got no time or energy for petty shit like that. But I can’t deny that these are the most extreme feelings of love that I’ve ever felt for another human being and I can’t get him off of my mind for a single minute.
It’s agonizing!!