I had an ex (20 M) of 3 months, he lwk wasn't the best but he kinda cheated on his 15 y old gf ( lol) with me, they had a fight n shi and he didn't really break up with her and also they fucked.
So at the beginning, he was so interested in me and seemed like he geniunly liked me but i don't trust men. Even after i mentioned I have guy friends he threatened to kill them and made me block them and had many trust issues. I didn't really fw him he had no future and being with him guaranteed my future is gone but we did oral two times and last time we did and he broke up with me next day, we were actually gonna fuck but there wasn't any proper privacy, so gald i didn't get cracked but what baffles me is the next day he broke up with me. Before the day we went to do stuff, i said in call let's get married then fuck but we both were reckless and couldn't control the urge ig. Idk if he lusted me or not but after that day this guy friend of mine texted and i ignored but I was so curious on what he has to say , i texted but he tried to make a conversation but he cheated on his girlfriend so I wasn't interested to continue the conversation and i deleted the text and blocked him out of fear that he might get mad, I was lwk stupid , ig my ex thought i might be texting other guys even tho I showed him my whole phone.
Idk. Now i have a loving boyfriend but i am scared if we do freaky flirting or send pics, he might start to only lust and leave me. I don't wanna lose this one.