u/A_Swiss_Dude

27(M). Here are my traits, my strengths and challenges. I went through depression and therapy at the age 24. I just know my IQ score, from the test WAIS IV, not any other diagnosis. I consider myself too average to be special and too weird to be normal. I can and cannot relate to a lot of labels/categories and don’t know how to tackle down my life projects nor how to improve my daily life and discipline. Advices, support, comments, answers and questions are what I will avidly read and be expecting. Thank you in advance.

Neurodiversity:

Internalised Adhd (ADD)??

• daydreaming
• shy kid
• raised by women and relating way more often to women, have had more female friends
• endless rush of thoughts/ questions (with the right people)
• unable to get angry
• very patient
• doodled in class
• emotional damage (hyperempathy, hyperemotionality)
• unable to limit myself when left on my own

Giftedness:

• easily got good grades in school until my 15s
• 10 minutes cram periods before exams in high school proved to be enough
• very good memory, especially of emotionally important events (up to 25 years ago)
• analytical thinking and love puzzles, complexity in many topics (philosophy, religion, maths, physics, languages)
• IQ of 140 with discrepancies VCI 141 PRI 140 WMI 117 PSI 120 and each of these subtests were with various results ranging from 11 to 18 in exercices
• gives good advice to people or good at reading them
• unmotivated by success in career or money
• love sarcasm, dark humor, refined jokes and 3rd degree humor

Social challenges:

• difficulty to understand or feel the right timing for jokes, commentaries or no filter on some thoughts???
• had no friends other than my brother and a neighbour until I was 13
• never stuck in groups of friends
• difficulty to be a friend to my friends

Other challenges:

• being on time
• taking notes from a listening class (or powerpoint)
• reviewing class contents, study in a library or at home
• lost interest/hope in many of my childhood dreams
• learn lyrics without reading them multiple times(very hard)
• watch a movie or series I watched 15 years ago
• function without dopamine (girlfriend and friends Number 1 healthy dopamine source, then comes cheap dopamine)
• low self esteem
• organise/plan my week/day
• start activities/tasks, especially if only impacting myself

Side notes:

• I hate hearing to “be a man”
• what is Body Doubling?
• sorry about my imperfect english
• I currently live in Germany and don’t know if I could study a bachelor