u/ANamelessGhouI

hello community, i'm adding the serious decision flare to this post because this is a matter i have been dwelling on for a few weeks and it involves a large decision behind years of responsibility.

when i was younger and knew NOTHING about huskies (or animals in general) i was "surprised" with a husky from a friend of my mother.

i was a teenager on the younger side, i was excited, because what kid wouldn't be excited about getting surprised with a cute fluffy animal. i educated myself deeply about siberian huskies. how to generally care of them and what is best for their diet, how often they have to go outside each day, etc. i've taken amazing care of her throughout the years and i have no regrets in raising her. now that i've gotten older i'm beginning to realize that owning a high maintenance animal like a siberian husky is not for me, and it almost leads me into feeling a sense of guilt. although owning this dog was never a decision i got to make, my mother's friend was simply desperate to rehome the last of the pups.

i'm older, i'm working, i'm preparing to move out. i don't trust my father taking sole care of her when i'm not living at home, both of my parents mistreated animals when i was very young and unfortunately i remember it vividly. i took my pup under my wing and sheltered her from my parents ever taking care of her because i didn't trust anyone but myself caring for her, my father however being a larger concern than my mother.

my mental health declined severely as i grew older and now taking care of her on my own feels like a chore rather than basic care. i don't know how much longer i can care for her on my own terms. maybe it's just because of facing said mistreatment of animals from my parents growing up, but i'm concerned if my mental health continues on this slope i'm going to end up mistreating her as well, just not as harsh of a degree as my parents did with their past animals. that's the absolute last thing i want for this sweet girl

i love her to death and this is a difficult decision for me to make, i just want some insight on what to do. it feels like my younger self within me is crumbling over the fact that i feel as if i'm involuntarily giving up. she's an incredible dog, she has her flaws but that doesn't make me love her any less. and before anyone asks or makes suggestions, yes. i am currently seeking treatment for the state my mental health has been in since i began feeling this way. i haven't gotten much advice or help on my feelings within this situation though. i just want to make things right and figure out what i should do in order to improve my quality of life, as well as my pups.