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Idk why I'm surprised but it's just that I'm so used to cutting on my arms that perhaps i've become more pain tolerant, so when I did it on my thigh (to hide better) it hurts so much to walk I'm almost limping, but I'm tryna make it less suspicious.

So far so good though and they seem to be healing fine!

I lowkey removed the stuff I had wrapped around it because it sealed up, it felt like too much work to look after it especially when I barely know a thing about self care XD

Super random but I felt like sharing, I failed to hit beans but!! I finally wrapped some gauze and whatever I found around them. It kinda makes me feel shitty though because I don't think they're deep enough to be taken care of but whatever,

I heard I should wrap it tight enough to feel pressure so blood can stop, it's pressing on them and it kinda hurts, idk if that's good or bad but I like it, though I'm concerned.

Any tips on how to improve wrapping bandages? They're styro.

Edit: google said I need to change it daily for five days? Oh my.. no way I'm doing that lmao

Idk what to do to relieve myself, my favorite person is busy and I won't bother asking to talk. It's not like I wanted to talk or anything but at this point I'm not staying clean for me, but for others.

I'm so exhausted from hating myself, why can't it just end

I wanna relapse really badly, and go beyond styro but I keep thinking about scarring, and how it could affect my image in front of people in the future, If I even make it that far.

Why don't they take me seriously? I don't understand, when will they? When I'm seriously injured I wonder? Or much worse? I don't understand anything I don't