why am i such a piece of sh- i mean silly we stay so silly
i hate being ghosted i hate being ignored but nobody ever talks to me if im not the one to initiate conversation and when im not keeping it up i dont get responses
ive been ghosted five times over the last few months and the people who arent ghosting me barely seem interested in me or anything i have to say and in my low point tonight i posted a comment elsewhere (which has since been deleted) lashing out about it (i never named names) in that sub where most of it is happening and one of the people who ghosted me responded basically saying that they just stopped wanting to get dms (which is bs because i saw a post on their profile recently inviting people for rps or something) and that i need to get over it because “people ghost” and telling me that my one word responses to their messages were annoying but also telling me that i a random person on the internet dont deserve a reason even though i thought we were friends? we had talked before about other stuff than just the subreddit subject matter we talked about video games we both like and talked a little bit about drawing i thought we had at least SOME form of friendship? but no i was still just some random guy who doesnt deserve the decency of even being told the problem? i wouldve been willing to change my typing habits if the one word responses were getting annoying but you never even gave me the opportunity to become better
and the actual person who my short rant in that comment was about is someone else who has been ghosting me for over a month and i know they’re still active because i see their comments in that subreddit and someone else in that sub ALSO is apparently now their partner which i know happened recently so not only was i dropped without a word but i know now they were deliberately choosing to ignore my attempts to reach out because theres no way they hadn’t been looking at their dms if they’re straight up DATING someone here on reddit now
and the people who DO talk to me (which again I HAVE TO INITIATE) just seem so dismissive of me except for one of them who genuinely seems to care but is so busy throughout every day that we can only ever talk for maybe 20 minutes a day
i am so lonely i spend all my free time gaming and doomscrolling or looking at a niche gooner sub im such a loser and im at my breaking point for the first time in a while i was actually legitimately on the verge of tears tonight am i seriously just such an unappealing piece of trash that im not worth anyone’s time why is everyone so dismissive of me why am i always being shut down
fuck i mean um im so silly we stay so silly haha