u/940s30v

Hi im a 22M that doesn't have any friends and pretty socially awkward but I would like to find some people to hang out with IRL in my area (Newcastle/Hunter Valley Australia) or maybe just be online friends so message me if we you're interested.

Interest/Hobbies

• Music (many genres but mostly goth and metal)

• Movies

• Anime

• Volunteer firefighter

• Leather working

• Camping/Hiking

• Fashion

• Bodybuilding

• Plants

•Motorcycles

Im looking for new hiking boots (mid to 6 inch not shoes) that are breathable (no waterproof lining) and cheap to mid ranged in price

So I (22M) started therapy for the first time a few weeks ago and have only done 3 sessions, but I'm having a really hard time opening up to them. I can talk about some things objectively, like such and such happened when I was this old, but I'm having trouble opening up about how that made me feel at the time and how I feel about it now. So some context on why I have trouble with this: I was raised by my grandmother, who would invalidate me for having any kind of emotional outbreak as a child, yelling stuff like, 'You're going to end up just like your father, doing drugs, going to jail, committing crimes or just straight up leave me.' I would get the 'toughen up, be a man, grow up' bullshit from the rest of the family. Also, I have no friends and haven't for the last 2 years, but my friendships before that have been mostly surface-level, so I have lots of anxiety and terrible social skills, and I haven't talked about any of this before, or when I tried, it was made fun of by friends. So what I'm asking for is advice on how to open up fully. I know I have issues, and I'm trying to work through them, but I can't help but feel so weak and pathetic when I try to talk to someone.