Dearest, S
I know I don't give the impression of being religious, but hey, I at least talk to God every day. I pray to Him when I wake up and before I go to sleep. And in those prayers, I always make sure you're there.
I asked God to let us grow and be happy. Indeed, he let us grow. Separately. I guess I forgot to say together in my prayers.
Sometimes I find it funny that He really takes things literally. 'Cause when I prayed for a man whose life is centered around Him, you came. But I lost you because of that trait too.
Now that we're apart, I've been closer to Him more than ever. I keep telling Him about the times we were together and my rambling thoughts of why we ended. We were never allowed to be together in the first place, but we did so anyway.
Now, my prayer remains the same. And I pray you meet the woman who will serve and proclaim the word of God as much as you do.
Be well, my love.