I never really put my self out there l and I didn’t really mind being alone, I even liked being by myself sometimes, just chilling and doing whatever. I can hold a conversation at the minimum and make a rare joke from time to time but ultimately I just choose not to with most people I interact with. My tone is friendly enough to have some conversation with others. I don’t like to say I have friends, I think of them more like acquaintances I talk to and spend some time with(I don’t say this to them because I’m sure the reactions won’t be good for anyone). I’ve been like this since primary school.
I’m 23 turning 24 this year, recently I’ve lost most of those acquaintance, and I’m beginning to question if I should be more social. I’ve lost relations with people before and back then I never really minded them, it was their choice and I won’t fault them for it, but now I’ve been asking myself some things. Should I put myself out there? How? I’m sure I’m socially inept in a lot of areas. Am I anxious about making friends? How do I approach them? Do I want to be by myself for the rest of my life? I still like being alone and doing things by myself, I don’t want to give that up to make time for others. I definitely don’t see myself with a significant other(I don’t know if I’d like spending time with someone on the daily) but should I make an effort and befriend someone?
I want to know if anyone else here has been in a similar situation and the choices you made. Do you regret or approve of them? Did you stay by yourself or developed relationships(relationships as in any form of relation you have with someone, not just significant others)? What are somethings you had to give up or compromise to keep your relationships? How did being with others help you vs being by yourself. I like reading others experiences and I could learn a thing or two from that.