u/888worm

Maybe is the emptiness and boredom that comes with bpd, but I have a chronic dissatisfaction with everything that I have, even when I know I have good things around me or happening in my life, I just can’t feel them, I feel dissatisfied. Sometimes I get very into something or someone until this euphoric feeling fades away after weeks and I feel dissatisfied again, nothing ever fulfills me long term, its like a perpetual state of finding meaning somewhere somehow, but I can never reach it and it eventually leads to suicidal ideation. Anyone relates with this?

Just a quick post as this happens to me a lot. After being completely obsessed with someone, or something really, thinking and trying to reach that person/thing daily, out of the sudden, I get enormously bored, lacking total interest and even repulsing them/it. Usually it doesn’t change back, it just goes from hardcore attention and intense love to ah yea I don’t care.