I’m having surgery in a couple days & just need some reassurance
I’ve got an autoimmune disease that means my thyroid has gone into overdrive, so I’ve got surgery this week to eject the ornery little gland! This will be my second surgery ever, but the first one I’m facing as an independent adult, & the longest I’ve ever waited for one (had to stabilize with meds). Overall outlook is positive, this is the best course of treatment for my situation, I’m just getting anxious the closer I get.
I have a wonderful, reassuring spouse, and lots of support from friends and in-laws, but my parents are not super…reassuring? people. Just straightforward, doctor says you’ll be fine so nothing to worry about. Not unhelpful, not unsupportive, to be clear, just not terribly concerned & assuming I’m the same. I’ve been pretty emotionally independent my entire life due to a lot of chaos in my life growing up, & I do struggle with asking for emotional support and just any help overall. I can evaluate my feelings better than actually feel them, if that makes sense, lol.
I’m really anxious about possible complications, being put under, & worrying about whether this will “fix” my health problems, or if I’m in for a longer road. I had a pre-op appointment today and it just hit home that this is a really big deal & I’m scared. Realistically I know I’ll probably be just fine, this is routine and I feel comfortable with my surgeon, but I can’t not worry about things going wrong.