u/711peepee

I drink every weekend and I always experience major forms of hangxiety bevause I have autism and tend to unmask when I’m drunk and I end up being very cringe. Tonight I was at a house party and one of the rooms had a sound system and everybody was not fully dqncing but slightly moving side to side and one of my songs came on and I was like yooo and started going full out choreography and everybody was cheering but now that I’m sober I feel like I did wayyyyy too much and I kinda hate myself for it. I feel like whenever I’m drunk I just do way too much and end up embarrassing myself every single time. I can’t stop thinking about how many people were watching me and how much I was moving and how stupid I feel. Genuinely I hate drinking so much because stuff like this always happens and I will spiral and borderline have a panic attack but I look forward to drinking every single weekend so I dunno what to do