u/6sam9

Hi, so I’m m(21) and I’m a university student. I have a friend m(20) who’s going off to Canada over the summer, and I asked if I could go with him but he said I can’t because he’s already got accommodation. Unfortunately, I’m very attached to him, and look up to him a lot and feel like I would be safe if I’m with him going off abroad, but he said that I can’t live in the same house as him, and I can’t work the same job as him, so he basically dismissed the whole idea. I got extremely upset, so I resorted to drinking a whole bottle of gin, I was very drunk and started texting him saying “I can’t be by myself any longer” and a bunch of other stuff saying I really want to go with him abroad. This was at night when he was asleep. The following morning I woke up, very hungover, and he texted me telling me he was worried about me, and to text him back to let him know I was alright, which I did. I felt terrible for my texts. Later on I told him I was struggling a lot in Uni being by myself, basically telling him I wasn’t doing well mentally. I then told him I really wanted to go with him on the flight to Canada, and that I’ll find my own accommodation, but he told me “look Sam, to be straight with you I don’t think you’re ready to go to Canada this summer and you should leave it to next. And I won’t be able to mind you at all, I’m sorry.” I then said to him that’s alright and I shouldn’t be pressuring him anymore. But AITA for the way I acted. I feel left out and upset, but I don’t blame him for not wanting to look after me.