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i did not know what flair or tag to add to this

I’m 20 and I feel like I already messed up my life.

I’m currently in my first year of BCA (2nd semester), and honestly, I don’t even want to be here. I didn’t choose this because I love it. I chose it because I had no other option at the time. Money was (and still is) a huge problem, and this was the cheapest path available.

What I actually wanted to do was aerospace engineering. Or honestly, any kind of engineering. I’ve always been the kind of person who looks at things and wonders how they work. Planes, trains, ships… even random machines. I go down rabbit holes trying to understand everything. I genuinely enjoy math too, even though I wasn’t some topper or anything.

But right now, my reality is completely disconnected from all that.

Most days feel the same. I wake up, play games, and go back to sleep. That’s it. If I try to think about what else I have going on in my life… it’s basically nothing. No real progress, no direction, nothing that feels meaningful.

It feels like I’m just existing instead of actually moving toward anything I care about. And it’s frustrating because I know what I’m interested in, but it feels so out of reach financially and practically.

I keep thinking: is this it? Did I just get stuck in the wrong path because of circumstances?

I don’t even know what I’m asking here exactly. Maybe I just want to know if anyone else has been in a similar situation and actually managed to get out of it. Or if there’s realistically any way to pivot from something like BCA into something closer to engineering later on.

Right now it just feels like I’m wasting time and I don’t know how to fix it.

P.S I did use chatgpt to fix my grammar and spellings if it sounds a little robotic

TL;DR: 20M stuck in BCA I don’t care about because of money, actually interested in engineering, spend most days doing nothing (just games and sleep), and feel like I’m going nowhere. Looking for any realistic way to get out of this situation.

i did not know what flair or tag to add to this

I’m 20 and I feel like I already messed up my life.

I’m currently in my first year of BCA (2nd semester), and honestly, I don’t even want to be here. I didn’t choose this because I love it. I chose it because I had no other option at the time. Money was (and still is) a huge problem, and this was the cheapest path available.

What I actually wanted to do was aerospace engineering. Or honestly, any kind of engineering. I’ve always been the kind of person who looks at things and wonders how they work. Planes, trains, ships… even random machines. I go down rabbit holes trying to understand everything. I genuinely enjoy math too, even though I wasn’t some topper or anything.

But right now, my reality is completely disconnected from all that.

Most days feel the same. I wake up, play games, and go back to sleep. That’s it. If I try to think about what else I have going on in my life… it’s basically nothing. No real progress, no direction, nothing that feels meaningful.

It feels like I’m just existing instead of actually moving toward anything I care about. And it’s frustrating because I know what I’m interested in, but it feels so out of reach financially and practically.

I keep thinking: is this it? Did I just get stuck in the wrong path because of circumstances?

I don’t even know what I’m asking here exactly. Maybe I just want to know if anyone else has been in a similar situation and actually managed to get out of it. Or if there’s realistically any way to pivot from something like BCA into something closer to engineering later on.

Right now it just feels like I’m wasting time and I don’t know how to fix it.

P.S I did use chatgpt to fix my grammar and spellings if it sounds a little robotic

TL;DR: 20M stuck in BCA I don’t care about because of money, actually interested in engineering, spend most days doing nothing (just games and sleep), and feel like I’m going nowhere. Looking for any realistic way to get out of this situation.