My mom doesn’t like me as much as my younger brothers and now I’m worried my child can tell.
I’ve always been my mom’s least favorite child. I’m the oldest and she had me with my father who was her first marriage and it ended when I was 2. Shortly after her divorce she got pregnant and then remarried to my now step dad. After their wedding they had my second little brother and it soon felt like I was the odd one out. She clearly cared more about them than me. She would go to all of their little t-ball games, even coaching a few years. When I made cheer, she was irritated that it was going to mess with her schedule with my brothers and not once ever came to watch me cheer. She didn’t order my school photos growing up and “accidentally” left me at my high school graduation. I was in charge of keeping my brothers rooms clean, and our shared bathroom along with kitchen and living room. I had to find rides to school every day because she had to take them to another school across town for elementary. I would get left at home while they all went out to eat, and when I got my drivers license it was now my turn to drive my brothers everywhere that was conflicting with my mom’s schedule. Once I turned 18 I moved out, bought my own house and got married and had a baby. My daughter is absolutely obsessed with her Nana but my mom totally treats us (me and my daughter) like we are a nuisance. When she comes to town to visit, it’s all about her and her schedule and what’s she wants to do and where she wants to go. My child got a play kitchen recently and wanted Nana to come over and play with her and my mom is “too tired” and I actually lost it. I haven’t been able to stop crying. I feel horrible. My whole life I’ve tried to not be like her or let her affect my feelings but this one, really broke me. And I can’t seem to shake it.