I've been trying to bind at work now that I've officially started T and it helps with my dysphoria a lot too. However my binder is rather old and I'm worried I'm wearing it too much (30 minutes to an hour over the recommended 8 hour limit). I've tried tape but I have uneven breasts which makes it very difficult to do properly. Should I simply invest in a couple new binders or keep trying with tape?
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Smoked up some dirt to relax before a long work week and made open faced avocado and garlic cod sandwiches on rosemary bread with watermelon slices, chickpea salad, and mango honey yogurt for dessert
I recently discovered I likely have autism from a new therapist. After looking into it further it makes sense and a lot of the symptoms line up with things I've been coping with my whole life. The problem is I really don't feel like I can keep working with this therapist because despite his experience I feel uncomfortable with him for several reasons.
- I don't feel like I can talk without being interrupted and being derailed. I have to use my "work voice" to respond to his questions.
- I feel like he assume things about me (like because I have an asian parent I was asked if they are a "tiger parent")
- The personal topics I want to discuss about my life being dismissed or brushed over in favor of discussing my autism.
- He was not straightforward about diagnosing my autism preferring instead to ask vague questions about brain trauma and explaining his experience with autistic children before ever suggesting I might have autism.
- He has given me minimal guidance regarding his expectations instead insisting this is my time to talk when it doesn't feel like I get to lead conversations or give contextual stories without interruption or derailment.
I feel like I have learned a lot about myself from this therapist but I am dreading my next appointment especially considering I had to go back on a commitment for work to avoid "resetting therapy" and possibly being kicked out of the program as a whole should I cancel again. (This is the first time I've had to cancel and it's because of an extended work week.)