Unable to perform my talent post traumatic event?
sorry if this is typed poorly, i don't usually use reddit.
i really need some help. i went through a very traumatic event in the past year, without delving into details i received an incredibly hard blow to my sense of self and self esteem, and have since been screened for PTSD and CPTSD and both came back highly likely. my therapist is certain that i am dealing with both
i've drawn my entire life and currently do a lot of work related to art, it's an incredibly big part of my production pipeline. but ever since this traumatic event, i find i'm completely unable to do that anymore.
i keep trying to look up people who can relate, but what i find more of is people losing interest. it's not that i don't have interest, i consume art and art lesson media every day and have so many art ideas.
but whenever i pick up the pen or try to put it to paper, i freak out. i become so agitated and upset, the closest word i've seen someone use is "uncomfortable". and i was good at art! a very confident artist! but nowadays, i can hardly draw for 10 minutes before i scribble over everything i had done, disgusted and unsatisfied with myself.
please, does anyone have any advice to fix this!? i have a lot of projects held up before this important part of my pipeline is unfeasible for me. i really want to commission artists, but i'm really low on cash atm and don't want to pressure any kind artist into lowballing their prices for my sake!!! anything would help!!!