So to start I definitely had ppa in the beginning but now we are 16 months and my head has been above water for some time now which is great.
However, there are moments where my brain spirals and it is worse some days than others. For example, this current case of Athena popping up all over social media sends my brain to such bad places. I worry for every child in the world. I literally have thoughts of how terrible this world is and how some children are going hungry, are being hurt, or sa'd and I cannot stand it. These thoughts never occurred to me before becoming a mother.
Sometimes it can spiral so far that I have the thought if it weren't for my daughter I wouldn't want to live in a disgusting world like this. It is so heartbreaking that children have to deal with any of it. But I move on and go back to being fine and having a normal brain and not thinking of these things. And also, I would never do anything to harm myself or my life, especially because I have my sweet girl.
So my question, I guess, do we all have these moments now that our brains are chemically changed, or is this something bigger and I need to go talk to someone?