I have a crush on my friend
Hey everyone, I’ve been coming to terms with the idea that I may actually be a lesbian (27). It’s something I’ve been thinking about for the past few years but recently has been on my mind a lot.
I’ve known I’ve been bisexual since childhood, but I struggle with comphet and I haven’t allowed myself the permission(?) to have feelings for women.
For the past while, I’ve been feeling that I’m not actually attracted to men at all- and I’ve been suppressing the feelings I actually feel towards women for a long time. I’m trying to notice this and challenge these things, as I learn more about myself. I have had very strong feelings towards women but never managed to act of them out of fear.
That’s to give a little background to my current situation… There is a magnetic woman who has been becoming more involved in my friend group lately, and the two of us have some feelings for each other. I have heard this from her side.. but more so through the grapevine from another friend in the group.
On my side of things, I am very attracted to her- I think she is one of the most beautiful people in my life and I can’t help but get a little bit nervous around her. She has amazing energy and I just want to be near her and know more about her. I have a major crush, and would like to get to know her as potentially more than a friend but I’m scared to act on it because I never have this with a woman before.
I’m not sure what way to approach it- I do feel like the crush feeling is mutual and I would like to ask her out on a date. However I’ve a track record of falling hard for people very quickly and coming on a little too hard at the start. I don’t want this to be another crush that I don’t act on, but I am also scared that I will mess it up.
I would love if people have some suggestions on how I should approach this, without being too over bearing or to try suggestions to be able to experience the emotions of this without getting too in my head?