Day 2!
30M, been watching porn since I was around 13. I've tried quitting a lot of times but with no real plan. Always ended up caving after a week max. Didn't think much of it. In the recent years it got to a point where I was fapping 5-6 times a day just because I was bored. Over the last year I noticed I'm having problems maintaining erections. My gf is very loving and understanding so she never made a big issue out of it. Some other times I cum just 5 seconds into her touching me.
I did have a conversation with her about watching porn, but didn't tell her about the extent of my addiction. She told me that it's understandable if I want to watch porn, just to get it under control. But last month, we were in bed and I couldn't maintain an erection and also came very quickly and she asked "THAT'S IT?" I've never felt so embarrassed in my life.
I decided to make a plan, and go through with it. I've deleted all the apps I used to look at porn. Whenever I feel like giving up, I take my journal and start writing BE BETTER. It's only day 2 and already feels impossible. But I'm gonna get over it this time! Also started doing kegel exercises along with strength training so that I can focus my physical energy elsewhere and BE BETTER!
Any suggestions to help this journey are welcome!