i'm not sure if nursing is good enough
I come from a brown family and my parents are dead. I live with my sister and brother in law and am pursuing nursuing as an intl student in the U.S. BIL is investment analyst and sister did accounting at big 4 before she moved from canada. All of our family friend kids are doing stuff like medicine, dental school etc. One guy there is going to do investment banking in nyc and went to cornell. Now, my self image has taken a big hit after i've made myself a victim to outside comparison. I feel like I'll never make it big enough. I don't think i feel comfortable with the nurse stigma my community has even though I insisted I don't care. I'm so short on money and I have to commute 1.5 hrs everyday. I have no social life and pretty much these brown events are all i have and that doesnt help me. I cant even say no to these because these are events from my sister's in laws side. And i'm at a severe stretch for money because the money I inherited from my parents has not been processed yet. I can only have a job if it's on campus. And campus is far. My mental health has taken a hit since my dad dying in december and my sister doesn't understand bc she didnt get along with him. I'm struggling! I have sought out school counselling and I only have one free session left. I don't have the money to do therapy and even if i did i would have to do it in secret because my sister is not only nosy, but also forces her opinions on me. We have to go back to our country but that's contingent on my sister's green card. If she doesnt get it during summer break, i would have to ask my paternal aunt for money for next semester tuition- which i don't want. I feel suffocated and helpless. I've applied for jobs on campus but the money you need to go on the train to campus is also expensive. $17 round trip everyday and there's no summer semester pass.
I dont rly know what to say here because that's just too much stuff going on. If anyone has any logical reasoning as to how i should manage my internal ramblings and newfound insecurities - please lmk