u/4evedis-ease

Hi everyone. Every time I try to resist my hand washing compulsions, my brain immediately starts these dissociations and it's almost impossible to control. Like I feel dazed and sometimes I am completely in my head.Sometimes, it will drag me to a past memory and drop me there and I can't escape. Or start forcing me to imagine a fake scenario.I have started erp and also talked to my psychologist about this. But she told me to do breathing exercises or press my heels into the ground hard. But TBH they don't help since I start losing some sense of feeling in my body too. Does anyone go thru the same? If so, how can I stop it?