u/482doomedchicken

I’m having nightmares constantly related to the breakup.

I get so ridiculously triggered whenever I see my ex on other peoples social media.

I’m graduating in summer, that was meant to be a happy time, but since my ex will be there and is so strongly associated with it I’ll be there feeling upset, anxious and sick inside. while she is so happy and unbothered. people saying ‘don’t let her ruin this for you’ but I don’t know if that’s possible. it’s ruined already.

even my dog is suffering. she has anxiety and she was comfortable with my ex, I just feel like I’ve made her deal with so much change and uncertainty, there were people in the past too that she got close to and then lost. I worry it’s made her anxiety worse. it makes it hard to date because when I have people over my dog is upset because it’s new people.

dating and hooking up is just pointless anyway. all I’m doing is trying to replace her and displace my feelings and it’s only causing stress. it really feels like I won’t be able to love again or get over her ever.