I really dont know what to do down there trigger warning
I have to clench legs and just everything as much as i can so the pain of that surpresses it a bit atleast. It feels gaping all the time, any brush of fabric or anything, feeling like hands. intrusion. Ive experiment with taping it shut before it was really stressfull to do and overall just barely okay. I have nightmares of getting assaulted every other day or so so it really feels exposed and used all the time. I dont know what to do i can clench for a bit as i said with legs and all but it gives alot of cramps and doesnt help my already existing issues with walking i just dont know what to do with it. I dont have any bearable position it really hurts to do it all the time i dont know if its better than the dysphoria as am trying to not have a breakdown and do bad thing but im also just slowly doing the bad thing like this.