u/404errorlifenotfound

Ma'am the chart in front of you states that I am being treated for POTS, and that the complaint that sparked the lab work was excessive sweating.

NO SHIT I'M DEHYDRATED.

It's spring, the weather's getting warmer. I woke up an hour before that blood draw and had time for maybe 20oz of water while eating breakfast/taking meds before sweating profusely up the hill to my car. So I'm not really surprised it shows as dehydration

Anyways, any tips for remembering to drink more water? I long ago got used to dehydrated as "normal" (thanks, public school system) and am just starting to pick up on when headache = need water versus just laying down. Trying to figure out how to drink more before that point. Especially in the mornings, I don't like having my electrolyte mixes first thing because the taste isn't pleasant with breakfast. Tried vitassium salt pills but they don't seem to be doing much.

Okay, more accurately, she thinks we should do some identity building work. Which is fair, and something that I could see as valuable for the goals we're working on, but when she was bringing this up she listed sexual orientation as an example and now I'm scared

It's not like I don't know if she's LGBTQ friendly. I'm nonbinary and use they/them pronouns and she does super well with that. But telling someone I'm asexual... that's a different story altogether

It's not like I'm new to asexuality. I've only identified as nonbinary for 5 years, but I've identified as asexual for almost a decade now (10 years in October). But maybe that's to my detriment a little bit, because my introduction to asexuality was not a very good time for our community, as we were in the throes of ace discourse. I've heard everything under the sun that someone can say to dismiss asexuality, and every horror story about therapists who don't understand.

The thought of losing my fantastic therapist because she says something I can't unhear has paralyzed me. Even if logically I know her and trust her to be understanding, I can't help but feel that this is the one thing can't 100% trust any therapist with. But on the other hand, I'm not sure if I'll be able to dodge it if she brings it up again, because I have a pretty bad fawn response at times and I know in the heat of the moment I'll probably feel pressured to spill the beans so she doesn't get 'upset' about me saying no (even if logically I know she wouldn't. Lots of anxiety brain fighting logic brain right now)

Idk where to leave this off. I guess I'd appreciate hearing some of the good stories if anyone has anything, because trying to search for posts about this for reassurance was a real bummer and kind of only added fuel to the fire.

Or if anyone has an idea of how to approach this. None of the things we talk about really lends itself to bringing up the term to see how she reacts. Maybe some kind of infographic I can email her?