u/3mmett-kun

So. Today was the last showing of my school play, and my best friend is a senior. It just finally processed to me this is one of the last things we will do together. Because he's graduating.

The show today and yesterday were both amazing and I should be happy but I can't stop crying. My best friend is going to leave. And I won't be able to see him until I graduate.

And none of my other friends really like me that much and we're not really close and we won't ever do anything and they don't like me so I'm going to be all alone again.

I should be happy. He's graduating, the school year went well for him, the school year went well for me, the show was great, but I can't do anything other than cry. I'm going to miss him and I'm so upset.

There's a lot of terms and I don't think I could have fit it within the 300 character count so here's a couple off the top of my head:

Transmasc/fem, Trans woman/man, man/woman, etc.

Different people use different things for different reasons. I personally use transmasc because right now I'm questioning my gender and I do know I still feel masculine but I don't quite know if my gender is "boy" (boy, not man because age). Also it's really weird when people call others girl/boy when they're adults imo simply because that's how you refer to a child and it comes off condescending. But that's a rant for another time and another subreddit.

I love my hair, it's wonderful, but I hate getting it done. I had to go get braids today but it didn't go well.

Yesterday, I couldn't leave school till about 17:00 and that's when I started taking down my braids. I worked on taking down my braids until 00:00 🫩. My sister went to bed early, my mom wasn't home, and so I was doing it by myself.

Part of the reason it took forever is because I likely have ADHD (not diagnosed, so I'm not going to say I do.). And I still had to wash my hair and I skipped over detangling because i was tired and it was one in the morning and I had to wake up at 8:00.

So we arrive at the person doing my hair's place and I am extremely tender-headed, but I have not cried from getting my hair done since I was like.... 10 or 11. But this time? It hurted like hell. We were there for like two nearly 3 hours and I literally could not do it. I had to call my mom to come pick me up because I couldn't get braids today because I was kind of melting down.

Now my appointment is rescheduled for tomorrow and I'm getting twists instead of braids. It's kind of embarrassing to have to have it rescheduled because of how much I cried. I kinda wish I had more friends who are black because I want somebody to talk about this with but I really don't have any black friends. :/

But yeah! That was the horrible experience of getting my hair done today 😛