You guys, I’ve taken the first step, I’ve contacted a divorce attorney.
25 years together, multiple infidelities, the latest last Wednesday.
I can’t take anymore. I’ve been living in a prison of fear, and she finally made the pain of living with her worse than the pain of what she will do to our minor children and myself when she splits.
I’ve told her my plans to file. She has devolved into a deep dark depression. She had started SH’ing again, refuses to eat, isn’t taking basic care of herself. No substance abuse *yet* but I know it’s coming, she is completely reverting back to her true self.
I’m going to have to try my damndest for full custody; my kids need to be protected from her. I’m terrified of what she will do when she finds out. As usual, everything I’m doing is trying to punish her, or make her life as miserable as possible, because of course everything is about her.
I know I’m doing the right thing finally putting myself and my kids first. I have so much anxiety around the future, around what she’s going to do to us.
I don’t really want advice, I’ve been on this sub long enough to have gathered tons of really good advice, just some support would be nice.