u/3ddieV3nder77

I need you. Tonight!

Under a *Twilight* moon creatures stirred and your sparkled face blurred as I came out of a hot dream. Happy Mother's day to you!! Seriously, I want you. Going up the coast where the road Forks, wanna come?

It was not only strange, but emotional as well. When you have deep feelings for a person sometimes certain things can get overlooked. I come here vulnerable and honest and I can't change that.

Anywho, after reading a hundred letters today, they all seemed strangely familiar almost. I still can't put my finger on it, but you guys are crazy lol

Thanks for blowing up my inbox with light, love and hugs from so many new friends. Yes I'm a little embarrassed. Gn mockingbirds. I get the point.

So sweet 🤗

This is for you. You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. You are kind, caring and compassionate to name a few. When I think of you, I imagine holding both of your hands in mine, I pause to look into your eyes, butterflies kick in full blast.

I want to kiss you, slow, long and sensual. I'd run my fingers through your hair as we kiss, also when the kissing gets heated, id squeeze your butt and pull you all the way in. We are both releasing pheromones and can't get enough of each other. Id melt and be in heaven to be with you. You are the woman of my dreams!

You are the person who I want to build a life with. I will spoil you the way you deserve to be treated. I'd massage your shoulders in the back, where you need to be loosened up. Id massage you in every nook and cranny. I'd cook your favorite meals and take you out to your favorite restaurants.

Id prepare coffee every morning. I support you and am your ride or die. Our bond is more than love, it's incredibly special. I accept you for who you are. When you need snuggles, I will gladly snuggle you. When you need alone time, I respect that.

Tell me if you are struggling please, I'll be there in a heartbeat for you. I can pick up the slack, I got this. Let me calm your nerves if needed. You are the one. The only person that I want to be with for the rest of our days. I think about you everyday, and the ways that I can make you smile.

Id like to take you out on a date. I want to hear all about you. I'm head over heels for you.

I love you ❤️

Letter to my ex;

I worry about you daily. Are you doing alright? How is your health? How has life been going for you? I hope that you have a good support system. I apologize to you for my behavior and past anger that I had.

It may seem redundant but I am sorry for hurting you. As a result it eats at me daily, a festering disgust that I feel. No, I can't live with myself. I'm staying far away from where you live, in another state. I don't want you to be scared. Your healing and health are more important than whatever I'm going through.

You come first and id be there for you if you needed anything at all. Maybe I never deserved you, I certainly don't now. I'm sorry for bringing you down. I'm so very sorry for hurting you!

I'm sorry for being selfish. im sorry for not paying more attention to you. I'm sorry for making you insecure. I'm sorry for making you feel embarrassed. It's all on me! I'm sorry for loving you and posting all of the shitty letters I wrote. I'm sorry for holding you back. I'm sorry for being jealous. I'm sorry (if) that my depression makes me reflect any darkness and negativity on you.

I take all responsibilities and the consequences that come with it. You deserve to be happy. I'm sorry for being a total idiot. There's more that I want to say but I'm not posting those issues publicly. I realize that you will never come back to me or be my friend. I'm that stupid and that ignorant.

-your ex

Stuck in a dangerous environment 

Full of demons, drugs and misery

Wanting to elevate and escape 

I grabbed my trusty dog

Filled up the tank and jumped on the highway 

Music plays, forward he paves 

Out of the coast, through the farms

This solo adventure will be filled

With character building charms

As we pass a city of a thousand bridges

Freedom fills my eyes

Serotonin provides a natural high

With no destination or hesitation 

Leaving my troubles behind 

The morning sun springs alive

Praying to God and feeling fine

Luscious light soothing my soul

Inspiration is on a roll 

A colossal river winds like a snake

Foothills above reveal a majestic land

Pulling off to enjoy every view

Taking it in, what surprises may bring 

Replacing pain with pleasure 

Dropping weights while unlocking the chain

Troubles light as a feather 

Chilling in a tent, sounds of a river please

Serenity surrounds my spirit 

Towering trees wave in the breeze 

Nighttime falls as the moon rises

Strolling around absorbing nature's sound

Dinner was cooked on an open fire

Bigfoot is roaming somewhere near

Simply marvelous day

I wonder what tomorrow will bring? 

This has been long overdue 

I'm on the right path, this much is true