u/3amcaliburrito

I'm having a really difficult time getting in a good head space for our show on Friday. i think I've got all of the songs down, but I'm struggling to smile and get excited

also - It's my first show at a legit concert venue (not a bar) and i really need to be at 100%. I've been playing ~1.5y and this will be my 5th show. my nerves are mostly fine, a little anxious, I just don't feel any energy/drive.

any tips?

edit : I wanted to add that yeah I do take my mental health seriously I have been seeing a therapist and also I started meds like 2 months ago. I exercise pretty much daily. I'm just going through some pretty heavy stuff right now. I think I'm doing the basic self-care stuff that I should be doing

did you start new? or are you planning on starting new? I feel like it might be easier to just quit and find a new job vs detransitioning on the job.

I guess I'll be mtftm - seriously considering detransitioning because I look like a man still and i can't cope with a failed transition

I feel like kinda starting fresh might make it easier?