First gyn appointment on the 12th to find out whats what with my prolapse. What are a list of questions I should have ready? I already have a few written down but I dont want to forget anything. Or even stuff you wish you addressed from your first appointment?
I just realized I've probably had POP for awhile and just pieced it together. I hurt my back in October so I've been thinking all the pain I feel is related to that. But now I'm realizing its been this gradually getting worse the whole time. It feels like its my bladder sagging down. Idk what level I'm at but I'm assuming mild. Idk though. Im in a lot of pain from a really bad bout of constipation. I pushed sooo hard cause I didnt know. Im sore and made it so much worse. And I'm realizing I been sore for so long just assumed I was ovulating or my back pain was just really bad and contributing to it. I been dealing with constipation my whole life. And I been just making this so much worse. I wanna cry. Its Sunday morning. I came to the realization Friday afternoon. I just been laying in bed. Im so sad. And stressed. Idk what to do. But I also feel like I cant do anything. Im so scared. Im so scared to have to poop. Idk how to poop without straining. I have to start calling around Monday to try to find someone to see. I dont really feel comfortable with my pcp. So I need to find a good gynecologist. I live in bumfuck no where so I know we wont have a pelvic floor specialist and will have to travel towns over for any testing.
Im not ready to have to worry about this all the time. I feel like my life is over. Im scared to squat or bend. Laying down even hurts and I'm doing the side lay down with folded blanket in between legs. Or the blanket under hips and legs. It still hurts. I dont want to go to the hospital cause one of the ED guy is derogatory to woman on a local fb page and thats usually who we get. So I dont trust it. So I just gotta hope I can get into somewhere this week.
I have multiple pets that rely on me and I'm scared to even move. I only ate once in the last like 36 hours cause I'm terrified.
Why does no one talk about this stuff when you're growing up. Like hey by the way you can literally push your organs out your body. That would of been great information to have.
I was thinking about taking a menstrual cup and just clipping the end so it doesnt have suction to try to give my bladder some support but I'm scared of making anything worse... I'm only 32 and I'm half considering just the sew up option. Like that's the only sure way to not have to deal with this forever, right? I dont think I can live forever walking on eggshells about this. Like I actually feel hopeless for the future.. Idk how to move normally now that I'm terrified to sneeze, pass gas, bend, poop... even just a regular stretch or yawn I'm like oh no is that too much strain... I was on sertraline (zoloft) for a long time for anxiety and stuff I tend to have OCDish tendencies and this is pushing both into overdrive I'm considering getting back on to try to help with dealing with this. But I dont wanna deal with the 3 week transitional period while also trying to get into appointments....
Any tips or recommendations please