New gf
I found out my avoidant ex has a new gf and I don’t want him back at all, but finding out triggered this wave of anger in me that I wasn’t expecting. I’m not sad over it but I’m definitely irritated. I’m over him completely but I’m more so stuck on the injustice of it all. It’s like wow … you treated me so terribly, never took accountability or gave me a proper clean ending, and now you just get to move on like nothing happened?
I feel nothing but disgust for him, like I truly despise him but I also never got to express my hurt. I stayed silent because I knew it wouldn’t matter whether or not I spoke for myself, but it still sucks bc I’m carrying a lot of unsaid words. I didn’t send any dramatic long paragraphs or blow up his phone, I just calmly left it how it was. I don’t regret that choice either and it’s been months but sometimes the “vengeful” part of me wants for him to know that what he put me through was not okay, and that he’s a horrible person.
Now my brain is spiraling again between what if he treats her better or what if it was just me he was a pos to? It still messes with me that someone can hurt you so badly and walk away completely unscathed, it’s so sociopathic to me.
Like how do you deal with this kind of anger after already being over the person? It’s a really weird place to be in.