u/2_Late-4_me

i am preparing fir an entrace exam for a job

my performance is not upto the mark even after 2yrs of preparation.

i feel so stupid and ashamed that no matter how much I tried I cant improve.

i feel ashamed that even after 2 yrs I cant tell if I am not up to the mark due to any mistake I am making solving which will instantly improve my performance or I just dont got it.

my peers are ahead of me by 2 years since I took a drop to prepare

i tried to detach , try to aceept things for what they are but I cant because failing it would most probably result in a life of pain and struggle.

i am trying to accept it but it just wont work.