Parents both died a few years ago. My aunt's and uncles are dead from ...whatever. No real family. One half brother who is a bit of a piece of shit. When my dad was dying he called and asked what he's getting, not even a ...how are you, need some help? It was during covid. I ended up giving my dad his chemo treatment at home, no help from the brother a single time. One friend died, another moved across the country. I got married between the time my mom and dad died. Fast-forward a few years. Shit sucks. I'm working a terrible job that barely covers the cost of living while also back in school to finish that which I took a decade break from for reasons. I've been carrying a lot lately. Can't sleep because of thoughts of dead family and a torn rotator cuff that constantly wakes me up, work nights, no social life. Wife is mad at me because I had a melt down at something she said... giving me cold shoulder/curt/silent treatment for days. No where to vent, no time or money to vent. No escape. Life is ... Hmmm. I need a refund.
I don't even know why I'm talking here. I ran across this place and said fuck it. Whatever. Hope anyone who runs across this is doing okay. Truly.
Sorry for rambling. Take care.