Can't get him off my mind
There’s this one guy na I met here lang din sa Reddit na sobrang na-attract talaga ako sa kanya unang kita ko pa lang (sa katawan and sa tool). Out of curiosity, I checked his profile and nakita ko na he’s pa-booking.
When he sent his photos, mas lalo ko siyang na-type-an because he looked very innocent and wholesome, which honestly felt the opposite of how he presents himself here on reddit. First time ko rin pala gagastos for this kind of experience (since I only do sides and I feel like it's a waste of money to hire someone just for side fun).
So after waiting for so long, finally nakapag-set din kami ng meetup schedule and kung saan kami magche-check in (first time ko rin mag-check in).
Since di ko alam yung check in process, I gave him money the night before our scheduled date para siya nalang mag-asikaso, and after getting his number (since sa e-wallet ko it-transfer yung payment), I was able to identify him, kaya na-stalk ko narin siya that same night.
In person, he looked exactly the same, and sobrang gaan ng vibes niya. The moment I arrived sa room, akala ko honestly magkukwentuhan lang kami kasi we had good tiki-taka (at least from my POV, di ko alam sa kanya 😅).
Eventually, we started making out. Nakadalawang rounds kami, first round, I sucked him and he came on my face. Second round, more on edging lang.
After everything, lumabas kami and I treated him for coffee and dinner. Chill lang, kwentuhan, parang normal hangout. Then we eventually parted ways after magpababa ng kinain.
Hindi siya ganun kagaling despite his high fees (or ewan, ganun na ba talaga pricing these days?), pero honestly feeling ko worth it pa rin yung binayad ko because I genuinely enjoyed the time and the vibe we had.
For context: I'm a closted bi-male. No one in my life knows about this other side of me, kahit sobrang close ko sa parents and friends ko.
And ngayon, hindi ko siya maalis sa isip ko.
I'm genuinely curious, is it because of the experience? or dahil ba wala akong bi/gay friends na I can open up to tungkol sa side na to ng sarili ko? or am I genuinely attracted to him beyond the experience itself?
PS: We didn’t exchange socials that time kasi hindi daw siya comfortable, and I didn’t push it kahit alam ko naman na socials niya. Medyo nalungkot lang ako ng slight when my stalking skills revealed na nag-followan sila nung recent client niya.