As the title says, I just got diagnosed with High Function Borderline Personality Disorder and Bipolar Disorder. Got prescribed mood stabilizers and antipsychotics.
How can you describe to someone the pain you have gone through, or you are currently experiencing?
The high function makes it impossible; one night I wanted to end myself, and then the next day I was the happiest person. My dissociation and compartmentalization make it genuinely impossible to verbalize even 10% percent of my pain. I dissociate so much that even my psychiatrist, the first time I saw her, she was shocked and even concerned about me like "how is he still alive? How can he talk about everything so freely without feeling anything?".
Also, I'm new; that was my first meeting with her. I'm going to see her in 1 month. What are some tips? Some advice? Just please tell me what you think would be helpful