u/1nia23

Im F17.I was pretty religious at one point but then fell into zina just recently..my mom is super religious prays all of her 5 prayers and wakes up for tahajjud every night.Im not super close with my mom but we are on good terms but dont chat to each other that often,today she came to my room and said she wanted to talk she said she saw me in her dream and then described me turning to the wrong path and hinting that she thinks i fell into zina because of the dream she had(she didn’t specify the dream exactly and i didnt bother asking cuz i was so shocked)and then she asked me if ive been talking to any guys and where have i been going when i say im going out.I kept denying it and she kept saying dont do anything wrong i can always tell.But i haven’t showed any changes in my routine and ive acted normal around her im literally so shaken up cause how???And i already felt so guilty about it

Hi i’m F17 i’ve struggled with mental illness and had a pretty tough time growing up and would never pray and neglect my deen.I started praying more and would make dua since i hit rock bottom and had no way out i would always try my best to pray all 5 prayers and do tahajjud with it aswell and i would ask for a specific dua and Allah answered it,i was so happy and grateful it was answered it a way that i knew it was Allah who granted me it but i’ve lost myself again i feel like a hypocrite praying to Allah only because i want something in this dunya i fell into sin and started neglecting my prayers again and i have no motivation to continue and i just feel so guilty.