u/1Daydreamerd

I stumbled upon this thread by simply typing in “someone accusing you of doing stuff you aren’t doing.” This is where the rabbit hole began. For 5 years I have been facing a world wind or a shit storm rollercoaster of chaos that has affected me. The instability of it all. Never knowing what’s gonna happen next with this person. What trigger will set off tantrums and accusations and so much drama. I’ve learned terms for the things I’ve been dealing with like hoovering and splitting. I’m honestly struggling and most likely in need of therapy for myself to recover. But he’s undiagnosed however almost every post I’ve read fits the description. It’s like or am I crazy ? Because this type of person will have you questioning your own sanity. I’ve been accused of all types of things cheating, changing my outfits to another outfit, I took 2 minutes to answer the door for them in a 2nd floor apartment so I must’ve had another man go out the window. Ive been sitting next to them and they’ll accuse me of something im literally not doing and they believe themselves and get so angry and mad. So much off the wall shit that I’ve almost lost track of it or my memory has been affected by this shit. I’ve experienced having a good time then he splits and all hell breaks loose for nothing whatsoever. And lastly I’ve been discarded on and off and on and off again. If I don’t say something a certain way I’m blocked discarded. Once I said I think I wanna go to Walmart I didn’t use the correct wording according to him so I was trying to be sneaky and cheat so I’m discarded. I don’t believe that he can feel emotions at all like he doesn’t have empathy for others he’s fake he’s hiding and I make him uncomfortable because I will call him on bullshit and when I do he runs away and I’m discarded. There’s hoovering where I have been sucked in multiple times hence the 5 years. And this is all before I ever got here in this thread. I just realized that whatever this was deeper than me and I had no one to talk to about it with because I feel ashamed that I’m allowing someone to mentally abuse me like this.

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u/1Daydreamerd — 12 days ago