u/1984-02-ICU

I have PTSD from a couple of events. After leaving a bad relationship that ended with him trying to restrain me, suffocate me and tearing my clothes as I tried to escape from him. It broke me. At that time I really didn’t understand he was that person, I made a million excuses for him. That moment was a final point of a long run of mental abuse that went on for years. He would threaten to kill people I knew or kill us. Often would trap me in a car and threaten to drive us into a wall or off a bank into an ocean. He lied about everything, stole, cheated, and took my work and pretended it was his. He was my boss at one point and was part of me needing to leave my job. The whole thing changed every part of my life. I had a complete breakdown afterwards that lead to many bouts of PTSD and brought back PTSD I previously managed for years. It’s been about 18 months and I still suffer from severe depression. I have done lots of trauma therapy and group therapy but I still have huge amounts of anxiety and depression. How long does it last? Does it ever get better? What helped for you? It’s the on going hopelessness I feel that I cannot seem to get past.