Some I considered a friend assaulted me, and then went onto assault 3 people I introduced her to. I harbour a lot of guilt around this because they were people I introduced her to.
One of the things she did when she assaulted me was ask me really messed up hypotheticals. I don’t remember the specifics because I’ve blocked out most of the experience from my head.
I found this comic online that’s very indicative of the relationship we had. One of the characters in the comic was doing the hypothetical stuff, as well as a bunch of other things the individual did to me.
I’ve always viewed horror as a way to safely process trauma, like guilt and the Babadook. I’ve always consumed it because I just think it’s a fun genre of media to consume.
Is it normal for me to actively want to consume the comic?
I can’t tell if it’s because I want to punish myself for facilitating this predator being near my friends, if it’s some sadistic ‘I like to consume horror content’ or if it’s because it’s genuinely helping me process my emotions.