Does anyone know how to get rid of anger? I might hurt myself seriously one day. It's getting worse. Every time i try to do any work i get extremely frustrated really quickly when there's any problem. I only know one thing that works to kill the anger.
TW: SI, SH
I have been a complete failure for longer than my whole adult life and every day I'm alive procrastinating i hate myself more and more. I am so sick of promising myself to do better over and over and over and failing again and again and again. No matter what i try its still just a fraction of what i need to get done to be a functional person. I wanted to do so many things for so long but after years and years of laziness now i feel so hopeless and incompetent. >!Now when i end up in that same place of procrastinating until the last minute i have started hurting myself, and i get so angry. I think i am a worthless parasite. I am truly not made for this world. It's just comforting and not real but i have started to have suicidal ideation.!<
I am the worst kind of person. I do not have problems like other people have and deal with and still function and do things. I am too lazy and useless to cope with life. I wish i had adhd or something but i probably dont meet the criteria and i know deep down that i am just broken and incredibly incredibly bad at life. Thats why i can't even think about trying to make myself try to get assessed (which would probably not be very accessible) because if i don't have it i will feel so worthless and it will confirm every awful thing i say to myself. Its the one maybe hope i have that this isn't my fault and that there is something that can fix me.
Sorry for posting this. It is probably not allowed but I don't care anymore. I wish someone could know and understand how awful and useless and bad i am and still be nice to me. I will probably regret posting this people will be unkind or tell me i need to get help instead of complaining but unfortunately i am too lazy to make appointments and do anything i just have nobody real to talk to. Sorry if this irritates anyone. Tell me there's another way out?
To anyone that struggles with executive dyfunction / adhd-like symptoms, do you have any tips on how i could make myself get work done?
I feel like I can't start and i cant focus. Usually i use music, and white noise, and very specific step by step to-do list planning breaking it into tiny steps, and timers, and recording myself and caffeine, but i need something new and different maybe?
Maybe anything weird and strange and not the normal standard stuff i have heard a lot. What works for you? Even super specific strategies or weird stuff that you might think only works for you just to give me ideas. Thank you
To anyone that struggles with executive dyfunction / adhd-like symptoms, do you have any tips on how i could make myself get work done?
I feel like I can't start and i cant focus. Usually i use music, and white noise, and very specific step by step to-do list planning breaking it into tiny steps, and timers, and recording myself and caffeine, but i need something new and different maybe?
Maybe anything weird and strange and not the normal standard stuff i have heard a lot. What works for you? Even super specific strategies or weird stuff that you might think only works for you just to give me ideas. Thank you