I just watched a video of me singing at karaoke and my immediate reaction was to literally run to the nearest high cliff. My second reaction was to throw up and cry. It’s absolutely unbearable and I’m so embarrassed even though intellectually I know it’s not really that big of a deal. This kind of thing happens constantly. I embarrass myself tripping over my words trying to speak a foreign language and it ruins my entire vacation. I accidentally do something I’m not supposed to and I feel like crawling out of my skin for hours. Sometimes it’s just I remember a random embarrassing moment from middle school or something completely insignificant and I literally have to scream into a pillow to get myself out of the moment. Or any moment at all when I’m “vulnerable” with someone. I had always attributed it to RSD but genuinely how do I stop experiencing this how do I get out of this. This is 100% the thing that’s ruining my life the most and it sucks.
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Hello! I see such cool things on this sub so I know this is likely repetitive in comparison but I could really use the advice. I started a 3 day open water SCUBA class today. We did all the pool skills today. In the shallow water I felt really confident at first. When we got into 2m initially I felt totally fine and then something clicked in my brain. My mind and body suddenly realized that I wasn’t able to breathe through my nose and that made me really anxious for some reason. I had to ascend multiple times during the skills checks and slowed down my whole group which made me feel super bad. We’re diving to 12m tomorrow and I genuinely don’t know if I’m up for it. The moments when I’m underwater and I’m not thinking about my breathing I feel good and have a lot of fun, but I get in my own head easily and as soon as I focus on my breathing I get panicked. I’m in my own head so much that as I’m lying in bed on solid ground I’m feeling panicked and out of breath. I’ve felt nervous before obviously but never like this. No idea if I should try to push through the dives tomorrow or throw the towel in. On one hand I know panic underwater can be genuinely dangerous and I don’t wanna risk it but on the other hand I really want to do this so I don’t know:(( Thanks in advance for any advice <334