Breaking persecutory habits?
Hey. You can call me Z for simplicity (i'd rather not share my name here) and... I've been harsh towards my headmates in the past. We have issues with executive function and I tend to take my frustration out on my headmates; it's a bad habit I had even before we knew we were plural, and even after, I felt that the others were creating messes that I was expected to clean up. I was frustrated and angry with my headmates and acted in ways I regret. I never hurt the body, although I've been pretty verbally abusive to the others in the past.
I'm only just recently realizing how badly it affected my headmates after splitting a headmate who is actively afraid of me and generally quite skittish around EVERYONE now, and now I want to do what I can to quit my habit of hurting my headmates. I'm wondering if anyone has any advice on this subject that might help me deal with my frustration and anger better in a way that doesn't hurt my headmates.
Thanks in advance. And if anyone from my system reads this, I'm sorry. I never realized that I was hurting you and you didn't deserve my anger for something none of us could control. You don't have to forgive me, but at least know that I regret how I have treated you all. We are all dealing with this together and behaving like you weren't struggling as well was irrational and irresponsible of me.
- Z