Hi All,
Seeking advice. Pretty miserable right now. Over the last 2 days I’ve had increasing far lower back pain, centrally, right at the base of L5-S1 where I had my surgery 2 weeks ago. It’s throbbing, at best dull, never goes away. Hard to sleep and focus on anything else. Anyone experienced this? Doesn’t feel like nerve pain, which I experienced pre-surgery. Almost feels like my bones are rubbing together or something.
Hi everyone,
3 months sober today, again. Determined to keep going this time and to learn from my slips in the past, which have happened around this point. I’ve been in the program since May, but only started really working the steps in February.
I’ll seek out a meeting when I get a break from work this afternoon. I’ve been reading page 417 over & over today, which normally helps me. Went for a walk and reached out to sober friends. I find I’m not thinking about alcohol, but about other substances that wouldn’t qualify as “relapse” (yes, they would qualify as relapse for the program that I’m working!) and my brain keeps tricking me and focusing on them.
I don’t even know what I’m so worried about - I do a quick scan of my life, and there are no immediate threats, for which I’m so grateful. I start to focus on the past and how many people I’ve disappointed and let down in my life, especially in the year before I got sober, where my addiction reached its worst points. I can normally move on from those thoughts with mindfulness and self-talk. Not today.
Has anyone experienced this around a pivotal anniversary? Any words of wisdom that you can share would be very helpful and appreciated. Trying everything today, including posting here. Thanks everyone, I love reading the honesty in this thread.