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I need to vent cause I am so stressed out

My brother and I have had the same cold for a while now, but he is disabled and struggles more with it than I do. He just threw up all over his bed cause of the constant coughing he is doing and I’m the only one home. I genuinely just feel like I’m being tortured. I know he’s dealing with the same sickness as me but I can’t handle throw up. I went into the room and looked at it and was relatively fine and then I sprayed some stuff down and threw a towel over it but now I’m just lost and scared. He got in the shower like I told him to but I don’t know what to do next. I just want to crawl away and hide

I guess this is a success but it is realllllly stressing me out still. My brother threw up a little bit this morning in the kitchen and nobody was home except me. I put on a mask and a glove (could only find one lol) and cleaned it up. Shockingly I was totally fine looking at it and cleaning it. I was thinking it would be too much to deal with but I didn’t want to leave it on the floor for hours until someone else was home. I then stress cleaned the rest of the house and now I’m finally just sitting down. I should be celebrating but my mind keeps zeroing in on all the possibilities. Not to mention I keep getting my OCD triggered and I feel like its signs that I’m next 😩. Anyway, I just wanted to share. I’m really surprised I managed to deal with it even if I’m stressed about it now.

TW for discussion of maybe avoidant or bad eating behaviors

Lately I’ve been eating maybe one meal a day, especially avoiding dinners since those tend to be more ‘real’ meals and therefore have more ‘risks’ to eating them. All I can think about is how the food can be bad. When does it expire? How long has it been out? Is each ingredient safe? It’s always something. I feel terrible as it leads to what is likely perfectly safe food to be thrown away. My mom graciously made one of my favorite meals today, but all I could think about was how unsafe it was. I skipped eating it. She kept the leftovers but still those don’t feel safe. I just want to cry. If I try to explain myself it just sounds silly. I usually eat packaged snacks lately, and it’s making me feel unwell and never really full. I miss food. I don’t know how to cope better with this. I’m hoping someone else can relate? Or have ideas for ways to cope with the discomfort?