unique situation? is this even a crush?
i had a crush on this boy way back in the first grade lmao. he was like the second crush i’ve ever had and it was the most memorable. despite being a little kid, i already had my avoidance ways and acted like i hated him (and i mean like bullying, not proud of that) until he confronted me one day and we became friends. eventually one day, he confessed to me that he liked me and because ive always been a bit reckless, i reacted like he grossed me out and was like, “EWWW,” but idk why i did that, i literally LIKED HIM. anyway fast forward a lot to like hs and for some reason, things came rushing back on and off during these years. he stares at me a lot, follows me around and one time in the hallway, i was walking and i felt a tap on my shoulder and it was him. he didn’t say anything but tbh that’s just where it’s at. like we’ll make eye contact but we just don’t talk. another time, we were partnered together in a class project by my evil teacher and that boy fr chose to sit right next to me when he didn’t have to. no one in our group was talking (we were placed with two other people, one of which was completely checked out) and while i looked straight ahead at my computer screen and avoided eye contact, he looked over to his left where i was and did like a “once over.” like he leaned forward and tried to read what my face looked like since i wasn’t looking or talking to him.
am i delusional? is this even a crush? wtf even is this???