I’ve never been in love before. I’m 22F and I’ve had a few crushes, but nothing has ever turned into real feelings.
For a long time I didn’t pursue my crushes, and obviously that got me nowhere. At university I had about three crushes that I actually tried to pursue, but every time something went wrong. Either I’d lose all my feelings after the first date, things would get complicated, or they’d already be in a relationship (which is an automatic no for me).
After these little “situationships” (if you can even call them that), I end up feeling so socially drained that I don’t even want to talk to any guy who has intentions beyond friendship.
The thing is, I really do want to experience love and find my person. But at this point I’m starting to wonder… am I just incapable of love?
I’ve always been a bit of a hopeless romantic. I used to imagine having that “teen love,” maybe even getting married by 25. But now I’m 22, never experienced high school love, and I’m in my final year of university, so it feels like I’ve missed that phase completely.