u/0aie0

Hi there.
I (34f) just decided to reach out since tommorow I'm about to start vorioxetine on the dosage of 5mg. I feel extremaly nervous about it since other meds i the past seemed like making my symptoms worse. In the last year I was on sertraline, fluoxetine, escitalopram and duloxetine. I think coming off fluoxetine was the worst experience of my life with severe akathisia to the point where I was only able to lay down with everything racing inside of me and I could only scream internally. I had to talk myslef into going to the bathroom even.
For now my main problem is somatized GAD. The only thing I'm able to do outside is a short walk with my dog but even then I can get a panic attack. Apart from that I go out with my partner for groceries and that's all my "outside" activity. I feel anxiety in my body 24/7 without apparent reason for it. I tried psychoterapies but without much luck as well.
I also have extreme anxiety when it comes to any new meds. I've been lurking this subreddit and despite many good reviews there is also a lot of bad ones. My main fear is the second date with akathisia, I just want to cry just thinking about.
So tbh I dunno why I post this, maybe a bit of encouragement would help me and reason with this dreadful feeling inside.