u/0Riika0

Basically, all I know is that she does it for a week. I'm not sure what triggered it she got into an argument with her boyfriend but she said it's not because of the argument and just in general that she's tired. I've never been so scared for her because she had small cuts and she has a cat so I didn't ask for it at all but today she had long fresh cuts all over her left arm and almost to her forearm and I literally felt my heart drop when she took off her cardigan. I'm really glad that she trusts me this much to show me her scars.

We're really close and the day after when she texted me she's not okay she posted her therapist's note to her close friends' story and yk there were normal things about self-harm and stuff and in one sentence and it said to 'talk to Erika(me)" and that really made me happy that she trusts me so much she told her therapist about me and what we talked about.

And another side thing I've cut myself for a very long time but I've never trusted anyone to see it and like a month ago before all of this happened, I remember her asking me if I ever harmed myself. I was scared of anyone even her finding out and getting worried so I said no. But I wish I had been more honest with her so she would know that I know how it feels. Some people asked her about the cuts and she said my cat but we both know that it's not. Actually, i couldn't even ask anything about it because i was in shock (i don't know why even though i knew about it. I saw her scars today)

im scared of her doing something stupid before we even graduate and maybe get separated because weirdly enough almost every friend i know has self harmed once and we saw one of our mutal friends wrists and hers were deep i forgot what it's called because i haven't been in the toxic community for a while and that friend attempted of suicide.

I don't want my only real friend to be buried. I'm so stupid for not asking but if I were her, I would probably feel like an attention seeker and be uncomfortable. But not everyone's the same. What am I gonna do??