He wants to be better and fix what's been damaged
I am 24 husband is 33
This past week while I was in intensive outpatient group therapy a lady was talking about he ex and the things he would do and say to her and how it still effects her after 15 years without him. It made me open my eyes to the abuse my husband has put me through for like 4 years nothing physical towards me mostly verbal and emotional and hurting himself infront of me to manipulate me. He has said the most horrible things to me from my looks to saying how bored he is of me. When we would fight he'd punch things and scream in my face. The past 2 years he has changed and I think its only cause he is dying from renal failure. He is so depressed and keeps saying how sorry he is for how he has treated me in the past and how he want to be better and get help so he doesn't lose me and can learn to be the best person he can for me. But I am so tired and just don't have it in me right now to be the one to teach him. I wanna talk about our past and how hurt I am but he's scared me too much into a corner that I worry he'll threaten me or scream at me for being hurt by him. I want us to get professional help but we have no money. I love him so much and I hope he loves me but I just don't know if I will ever be able to forgive him.